grief remains, joy blooms

earlier this morning, i posted some over-the-top adorable pics of our littlest little.  goodness, does he make my heart swell.  although he has been eighteen months old for a couple weeks, i thought today was a fitting time to stare at that sweet face, to celebrate his short life.  enzo is an immense source of comfort and sunshine.  you see, today is the two year anniversary of our due date for sweet baby three, harehok.  enzo is here because of our loss.  this boy is a true gift.

the grief remains.  i don't expect it to leave.  it is part of my story.  but this year it is not crowding out the goodness.  it is less of a weed and more of a wildflower.  my life is not less joyful because of the giref.  in fact, i experience joy more fully knowing sorrow.  the joy blooms.

to commemorate this anniversary, we have been making small bouquets to share with neighbors and friends.  a thank you for their presence in our life.  this is a simple and satisfying way to share love and beauty, while embracing our grief.

luca and gia wrapped halved paper doilies and garden twine around glass jars reused from the kitchen.  a backyard bouquet of roses, peonies, mint, and wildflowers were collected.  they are a bit breathtaking, if i do say. 

you might not have as many flowers to choose from.  but a tiny bouquet of herb cutting or even dandelions in an empty spice jar make a sweet gift.  i bet you know someone who would love one.

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over at life rearranged, the infant loss and miscarriage series is coming to a close.  the accompanying fundraiser to benefit the now i lay me down to sleep foundation is at 77% of it's goal and closes sunday, june 5th.  if each one of you reading donated just $1, we could help make a serious dent in that remaining $460.  please check out the website and the guests posts.  and please consider a donation. 
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