remembering our babes

it has been nearly five years since we lost our third child.

oh sweet babe we never held.

such grief i had never known.

 

and i would have been 20 weeks pregnant this week with our fifth.

this pain is fresh still and my arms ache knowing we won't hold you here either.

the grief remains.  i don't expect it to leave.  it is part of my story.  but it does not crowd out the goodness.  it is less of a weed and more of a wildflower.  my life is not less joyful because of grief.  in fact, i experience joy more fully knowing sorrow.

candles were lit tonight in remembrance of our two babes.

and i know so many others who long for that day of reuniting.

i remember them with you.

until then, let us choose joy blooming as a wildflower in our heart-gardens, remembering our babes today and everyday.

i am joining the nester and will be blogging every single day in october! 

full list of posts here.