i am feeling absent from the blogosphere. both here and at your place. also on facebook and twitter. i drop in for a moment, maybe make a quick comment and then check out again.
i am like an on-line ninja. here are a few reasons why. . .
1) christmas!!! i am finishing up handmade gifts, checking that list twice and all that jazz. i used to try to finish it all up before thanksgiving. before baby number three came along. before homeschooling. i need a new plan for next year. plus we have more going on in the schedule. parties and baking and candle stick making. (not really candle stick making, but i was feeling the rhyme.)
2) gia's birthday!!! when i am not working on christmas gifts, i am pulling together bits and pieces for a fun and low-key party for our almost four year old girl this weekend. plus making a gift. wowza. that's a lot of crafting going on.
3) fibromyalgia. boo. this one makes me sad. i am just so wiped out. 2010 has definitely been one long flare-up.
4) i am a wimp.
um, what? well maybe it is the combined pressure of numbers 1-3 on top of regular life stuff, but i feel like hiding under a rock. i don't want to write. i don't want to share. i have been intimidated by other bloggers. i am tired of having great ideas and trying to form a vision, and seeing it all come to nothing. not feeling good enough.
i guess you could say i am not willing to set aside my plans for God's. i am not trusting Him. i don't want to change my plans. His might be better, but i am a wimp and too scared of His great big unknown.
goodness, i guess i just came out of hiding a bit.
and that is why i love blogging.
1 comments:
Thanks for this post and for your honesty in it. I so relate to the desire to hide and hold on to what you want. It's nice to know I'm not alone!
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